Several weeks ago, I came across an article that described the author’s belief about why some relationships fall apart. It reminded me of the fact that there are many different views, perspectives and beliefs in this world. I didn’t agree with this author’s perspective but I did respect it because, in my opinion, without differences, people could not create experiences by making use of their God-given gift of Choice each and every day. Without new experiences, life as we know it would be exceptionally boring but more importantly, our soul-awakening process could not progress. And that, my friends, is the reason we all chose a physical experience in the first place.  

In this well-written article, the author states that sometimes when communication breaks down in our relationships, it is because the other person cannot own their part in the problem when we hold the metaphoric mirror up to them. When a person comes to me for help concerning a relationship, I tell them that facing the mirror towards the other person is the cause for the conversations between two people coming to an end. The reason I share this information with them is because of what I learned from the divine insights revealed through one of the Message Art paintings, and have since applied to my life and practice - that each person who triggers a reaction in us serves as a mirror to reflect the qualities that we are unknowingly expressing internally.  For example, if your friend, ex-spouse, co-worker, parent or anyone else for that matter, triggers a pleasant reaction in you when in their presence, it means they are outwardly expressing the same positive qualities that you are expressing inwardly. But when the triggers are unpleasant, the qualities that are being reflected are negative in nature and the same as those you are expressing towards yourself – most times without even realizing that you are. Your triggered reactions have nothing to do with the people in your relationships but everything to do with you. Were you not expressing negative qualities inwardly, the unpleasant triggers would not be occurring and the conversations in those relationships would remain open and honest.

Consider your negative reactions as the universe’s way to let you know about the dense energy that is slowing down your soul-awakening process, and maybe even stopping it, while at the same time diminishing your well-being. You see, the unpleasant energy you feel when these reactions take place is the same dense energy that accumulates in one or more areas of your body each time you express negative qualities internally. This type of energy also prevents you from expressing all that you are which robs you and humanity of your greatness.

The same painting’s divine insights also taught me the five ways that we express our qualities inwardly, which are: in the way we behave towards ourselves, the way we feel, speak and think about ourselves, and in the way we live our lives. For instance, when you repeatedly act kindly towards yourself, you attract kind people in your life who trigger positive reactions in you whenever you are near them or when you think of them. These people mirror the positive qualities you are expressing inwardly and you like having them around because they always make you feel good.   

But there may be times when you believe, for example, that the reason the conversations in your relationship came to an end is because the other person’s past experiences and hurts made it too threatening for them to be less than perfect, make mistakes or to be wrong. Were you to tell me this was the issue in your relationship, the first step in our sessions would be for you to name the qualities that best describe your thoughts and feelings about the other person.  In this case, you may say fearful, stubborn and weak.

The next step would be to ask yourself in which of the five ways have you been expressing those same three qualities inwardly. For instance, have you been stubbornly refusing to follow your intuition because you are afraid of failure? Has your fear of rejection prevented you from standing up for yourself or making a commitment? Or maybe you’ve been repeatedly putting yourself down because of what you believe are your imperfections and weaknesses. It’s greatly beneficial to recall how often you’ve been expressing those qualities when you finally recognize them.

Don’t forget that for you to find the answers, you need to face the mirror towards yourself and not toward the other person. Looking in the mirror is more humbling and takes more courage and patience than holding the mirror and asking someone else to look in it. It is way more effective because it helps you to finally recognize the negative qualities you’ve been unknowingly expressing towards yourself. Only then does it become crystal clear your negative reactions have nothing to do with the people in your relationships. You are the source. Other people's qualities are merely reminders of something that needs your attention but to discover what it is, you need to look within.

Once you figure out why you are feeling triggered and address or heal what you discover, magic happens. The unpleasant feeling you felt each time you dealt with the person who triggered you, changes. You go from feeling emotionally triggered to feeling indifferent or neutral. You also notice that the other person has either changed his or her ways or is no longer showing up in your life. The reason for this dramatic alteration is because that person’s divine purpose as your mirror has been fulfilled. In other words, once you recognize the qualities that required your attention, the mirrors needed to reflect them no longer have to keep appearing in your life.

So, which way are you going to face the mirror the next time you have a problem in a relationship? I can tell you from personal experience that facing it towards yourself is a guaranteed way to get to the cause of the problem. After all, it should never be about blaming or trying to change another person but rather about making the changes that benefit your own well-being. Yes, it’s true that some of your relationships may come to an end - not because of other people’s problems but because their purpose for being in your life has been fulfilled.

The afternoon sky was as gloomy as many of the thoughts I’d been entertaining in the last six months. I was once again on my way home from the casino having lost way too much money in slot machines – a mirror of the day before and hundreds of days before that. Like usual, I hadn’t kept my promise of sticking to a budget. Not only had I surpassed it, I had lost over $1,500.00 in just a few hours. My head was pounding, and I couldn’t stop crying. I was so sick and tired of feeling guilty, ashamed and of profusely hating myself. I also didn’t like the thoughts that kept showing up in my mind – that maybe the only way out of my severe addiction was to end my life.


As tears rolled down my cheek, I shouted out, “Why are you refusing to help me God? I’ve asked for help every day for months now and nothing has changed. I just can’t go on like this!” After turning the corner, I noticed a big semi heading my way in the opposite lane. As I watched the distance between us shrinking, I had an idea. If I swerved the steering wheel at just the right time, the semi would hit me head on and my troubles would all be over.

No more waking up in a sweat and feeling like crap.  No more berating myself for being so weak. No more feeling depressed or like an idiot for not being able to adhere to a budget or staying away from slot machines for good. No more lying to my husband and family about where I spend most of my time. But most of all, no more living with constant anxiety and overwhelming guilt for having lost tens of thousands of dollars in slot machines – money I could never get back!


Holding on tightly to the steering wheel, I patiently waited to make my move. Within moments I yelled ‘Here goes!’… but something happened that I will never understand. When I tried to turn the steering wheel to the left, it didn’t budge, not even an inch. It was as if it had locked itself in place and nothing could move it. Then, everything around me got blurry and before I knew it, I was parked on the side of the road shaking uncontrollably. It took some time to come out of the daze I was in and only then did I realize the seriousness of what I had attempted to do.

I’m not sure how long I stayed parked but after my legs settled down somewhat, I put my car in drive and slowly made my way home. I was still crying when I got there so I was happy my husband hadn’t made it back from town yet. Late that evening I did what I'd been doing for several years on most nights. I went to my living room, lit up a candle, took out my pen and began journaling with whom I had come to know as God and my angel Sandra.


I’d always enjoyed our time together because once I connect with my divine guidance, my surroundings quickly fill with calming energy and the presence I feel near me is always patient, non-judgmental and ever so loving. I had been communicating with the spirit world in this way for so long that it only took a couple minutes for our two-way conversation to begin.

My first sentence was, “Okay God, as you well know, I’m in big trouble. I seriously thought of ending my life today because I really don’t know what else to do. I’ve gone for private and group counselling, attended support groups and spent years researching gambling machines. Nothing I’ve done has helped in ending my addiction. As a matter of fact, I am more addicted today than I was six months ago. I simply can’t go on like this anymore so please, please, help me before it’s too late.”


Within seconds I was transcribing the information coming through my thoughts, “The choice has and always will be yours but know that when you die, by your own hand or otherwise, you bring you with you.”

I immediately wrote back, “What do you mean, I bring me with me? The reason I want to end my life is because I detest who I’ve become.  I’m this weak, stupid and pathetic person who keeps repeating the same destructive behavior day after day. I no longer recognize the person I see in the mirror. It’s like something’s taken over my being and destroying everything in my life, including my finances and marriage. I can’t handle any more stress, or anxiety, or guilt. For months I’ve asked, or more like begged you for help, sometimes four or five times a day and you either don’t hear me or don’t care. I don’t understand why you’ve helped me with so many things in the past and keep ignoring my pleas when I need your help the most?”

After reaching for yet another tissue to wipe my tears, I began to write again but the information was coming so fast that I had a tough time keeping up.

 “When you die, you leave your physical body behind and return to the spirit world, but your soul-awakening process continues. You bring with you your memories, what you learnt through your experiences, or what you call ‘lessons learnt’, and your qualities, including those you think are negative. As I mentioned earlier, you bring you with you. You continue choosing journeys until you become fully aware of all that you are as one part of God. Your present journey is an important part of your soul-awakening process.


Just as I thought I was finished writing, more insights came. Because of the true essence of your being, you have the same qualities as God. The only way to truly know you have these qualities is to experience each one, hence the purpose for choosing journeys, both on Earth and in the spirit world. You are eternally and unconditionally loved no matter what you do or don’t do or how long it takes you to reach full awareness. 

Had you ended your life today, you would have been greeted with only love and acceptance and without judgement. You would then have been offered divine guidance and once accepted, you would have been guided in your new journey in the same way that you are at this very moment.

You would have eventually come to realize that whatever needed to be worked out on Earth was now being worked out in the spirit world. You would have also come to know that the opportunity to expand your awareness through an experience is always yours to accept or reject.  


My fingers were getting sore because I was writing so quickly. I asked my guidance to take a short break, which they did.  Five minutes later, I was transcribing again. “While still in the spirit world, you knew that a journey on Earth could expedite your soul-awakening process because of the many unique opportunities available on this planet. For instance, there are many opportunities to discover some of your God-like qualities within an experience as an addict. 

You stated earlier that you are weak, but have you not had to be strong to survive this long with such a severe addiction? What about the tenacity you’ve maintained while researching the true nature of the machines that addicted you and then writing a book about your discoveries?  Are you not more compassionate and patient with people struggling with addictions now that you’ve experienced your own?  Strength, tenacity, compassion and patience are all God-like qualities that you now know you have because you’ve experienced each one while addicted.

You discovered other God-like qualities, such as sincerity, trust, creativity, empathy and kindness through your experiences as a mother, inventor and artist and you will come to discover many more if you so choose to do so. The more experiences you create, the more opportunities there are to keep expanding your awareness about the magnificent and powerful being that you are.”


I’ve never had suicidal thoughts since the conversation I had with my divine guidance that night. The insights I received not only dramatically shifted the way I perceived suicide and addictions, it gave meaning and purpose to my experiences in a way that nothing of this world could have. It hasn’t always been easy to accept there’s a divine purpose for all events and people in my life, especially the difficult ones, but knowing that I’m never alone to travel this journey has lessened the pain and struggles incurred by some of them.

Several months later, I was having coffee with a woman who had been severely addicted to slot machines for at least four years. We had met a year earlier after she read an article in our local newspaper about my story as an addict and the discoveries I made during my research. We quickly became friends and had since shared many of our personal struggles. I could tell she was very depressed, so I asked if she wanted to talk. She looked at me with very sad eyes and said, “I hate myself so much. I’ve lost all of my retirement money and I’m too old to go back to work. As a matter of fact, last night when you called, I was on my way to the garage to end my life. I really don’t know what else to do.”


I asked if she wanted to hear what I had learned from my divine helpers about suicide. She nodded so I began by telling her about my own suicidal thoughts and what happened to me while driving back home from the casino that gloomy afternoon. I told her that the choice to commit suicide or not would always be hers, but ‘when you die, by your own hand or otherwise, you bring you with you’.

I went on to explain that if she did decide to take her life, she would not be judged or punished on the other side.  She would only be loved and guided in her new journey where she would get a chance to work out what she was in the process of working out here.

This woman’s reaction to the information I had just shared was eerily similar to what mine had been when I first heard it.  She looked at me with wide open eyes and said, “What you just told me makes me angry. What’s the use of killing myself if I bring me with me? The reason I want to end my life is because I despise who I’ve become.”

We talked for a while longer and before we parted ways, I suggested that if she asked her divine helpers for help, in her own way, chances were that she would receive the same type of guidance that each one of us will experience when we cross over.


Three months later, I ran into this woman at the mall and while hugging me with a big smile on her face, she said, “I hate you.’ At first her comment took me off guard but then she said something that made me also smile. “Because of what you told me last time we met, I can’t even think about ending my life - even on my worst days.  I’m still struggling with my addiction, but my load has lightened. And by the way, thanks for sharing." 

I’ve been addiction free for nine and half years now. I have a new appreciation for my experience as an addict as well as the other challenges I’ve had in my life. They have transformed me into the person I have become, and I like who I am. I continue to share the insights I receive from my divine guidance whenever I feel they will make a difference in someone’s life. It is through these insights that I learnt we are all connected and here for the same reason – to keep expanding our awareness about the special and important parts of God that we all are.

The following is a conversation I had with God while journaling on September 15, 2017

Dear God, keep me in your light always and guide me to my purpose of Earth.

There are so many disasters simultaneously happening in the world lately. Is it just me or are the hurricanes, forest fires, floods, droughts and earthquakes getting more severe and happening more frequently then in the past? There are times, like today, when I feel overwhelmed with sadness and fear for my own and humanity’s survival and I’ve discovered I’m not the only one who feels that way. God, how does one cope with these catastrophic events? I often find myself wondering what’s happening to our world.  Is this only the beginning of what’s to come?  Are these calamities Mother Earth’s way of responding to my own and humanity’s past choices? If so, is it too late for us to turn things around?  Please help me with your loving words of wisdom.

Take a few moments to settle you mind so my words can replace your worrisome thoughts. Relax while thinking of the place where we always meet and soon you’ll feel a calming descend upon your being. As you know, I am always here for you.

Nature has a way to take charge when it needs too. Many not-so-subtle energies have been at play for some time now, without you or most of humanity being any the wiser. The cause of these events may be beyond your understanding but trust that all is as it should be.  There is more at play than you can possibly know and as you learned years ago, nothing happens by mistake or accident. There is an order to everything that transpires on Earth. Like the domino effect, one event sets off another and so on until a transformation of energy ends that chain of events.

Remember in The Message Art when we talked about how the accumulation of the same or similar thought-energy eventually manifests in what is known in your world as a ‘reality’? You learned that each thought has its own energy field which attracts the same or similar energy fields from the Universe, including the thought-energy on your planet. Most people, like you used to be, are not aware that thoughts are energy, and energy is life. Consider thoughts as the building blocks of vibrational essence utilized by you and all souls to create while on Earth or in the spirit world. Thoughts give life to whatever you choose to create, consciously or not, so it’s important to recognize the thoughts that you entertain at both levels.

Each time a thought enters your mind, the manifestation of a new experience or physical reality, is initiated. The more time you spend thinking about something, the more energy or ‘life’ you give that something and the sooner it is manifested. For example, the longer you think about experiencing loving relationships, and without sabotaging them with negative thoughts, the sooner those types of relationships show up in your life.  Likewise, the more fearful thoughts you repeatedly entertain, the more likely fearful events will manifest themselves as part of your experiences. Your thoughts create what you want as well as what you don’t want in your life.  In other words, it is the type of thoughts you choose to entertain the most that determines if the outcome of your experiences is positive or negative.  So, the answer to your question ‘is it too late for humanity to change things around?’ is this: Energy can never be destroyed but it is never too late to transform energy! All that is required is the sincere commitment to replace fear-based thoughts with loving thoughts. The more people on your planet who make the commitment to repeatedly entertain more loving thoughts, the greater and faster the transformation of energy and the more loving the events manifesting themselves on Earth become.

Thank you once again God for your words of wisdom. I am so grateful for having discovered you as my friend and divine helper.  I will do my best to think more loving thoughts.

Gisele, when it comes to creating with thought-energy, what matters the most is the type of thoughts you spend the most time thinking about. Many thoughts show up in your mind each day but you are the one who chooses, consciously or not, which ones to keep entertaining and which ones to let go.